I AM FORGIVING MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING I am now willing to forgive myself . . . for not being willing to risk proving that someone may be wrong about me.

Many of us have a black hole in our hearts that sucks the fight, the life and the goodness from our lives.  Sure, there are days when we can smile, laugh and almost convince ourselves that life is okay.  Then, without warning, we are sucked down into the black hole of guilt.  Some of us are guilty about believing that we can be more than people have told us we can be.   Every time we stand on the verge of proving them wrong, we throw ourselves into the black hole.

There may be a black hole in your heart that is full of fear, pain, grief, anger or shame. This is a deep hole!  It seems so deep and wide that you may actually live in fear that it will swallow you.  Many of us live in the constant fear that we will be more than we have been told we can be.  Unfortunately, it is fear that sucks you deeper into the hole.

There is only one way to get out and stay out of the black holes. Forgiveness. Forgive yourself for all of the unkind, unloving, unsupportive things you have thought about yourself.  Forgive yourself for the things you have done to yourself, that support the things you believe about yourself that are not true.  Forgive yourself for being so hard on yourself.  Forgive yourself for all the clever ways you have devised to deny that these holes exist in your heart.

Until today, you may not have been aware of the things you have done in response to the black hole in your heart.  Or you may have done many things in an effort to deny, avoid, or ignore that the black hole exists.  Just for today, step down into the hole and forgive yourself.

Today I am devoted to opening up the black hole in my heart and forgiving myself for everything I have allowed to be buried there! 

From Until Today!  

by Iyanla Vanzant